4 years ago
July 29, 2011
The countdown has begun
A week from today I will be halfway to Seattle. I will have already packed up the small amount (small in a girl's mind lol) of my belongings in my car. I will have already looked at my empty apartment for the last time and felt the bittersweet feelings of letting it go. I will have said good bye to friends and family, cried, and then cried some more. I will have looked back at the place I have lived all my life as I drive away to a new adventure. Let the sadness/excitement commence!
July 26, 2011
I wanna leave something here
I spent the morning at an old friend's grave
Flowers and Amazing Grace, he was a good man
He spent his whole life spinnin' his wheels
Never knowin' how the real thing feels
He never took a chance or took the time to dance
And I stood there thinking as I said goodbye
Today is the first day of the rest of my life
I'm gonna stop lookin' back and start movin' on
And learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge, with out any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah I wanna be runnin'
When the sand runs out
'Cause people do it everyday
Promise themselves they're gonna change
I've been there, but I'm changin' from the inside out
That was then and this is now
I'm a new man (woman), yeah, I'm a brand new man (woman)
And when they carve my stone they'll write these words
"Here lies a man (woman) who lived life for all that its worth"
And as the cold wind blows across the graveyard
I think I hear the voice of my old friend whisper in my ear
I'm gonna stop lookin' back and start movin' on
Learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge, with out any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah I wanna be runnin'
When the sand runs out
Flowers and Amazing Grace, he was a good man
He spent his whole life spinnin' his wheels
Never knowin' how the real thing feels
He never took a chance or took the time to dance
And I stood there thinking as I said goodbye
Today is the first day of the rest of my life
I'm gonna stop lookin' back and start movin' on
And learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge, with out any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah I wanna be runnin'
When the sand runs out
'Cause people do it everyday
Promise themselves they're gonna change
I've been there, but I'm changin' from the inside out
That was then and this is now
I'm a new man (woman), yeah, I'm a brand new man (woman)
And when they carve my stone they'll write these words
"Here lies a man (woman) who lived life for all that its worth"
And as the cold wind blows across the graveyard
I think I hear the voice of my old friend whisper in my ear
I'm gonna stop lookin' back and start movin' on
Learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge, with out any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah I wanna be runnin'
When the sand runs out
Keith Urban
When the Sand Runs Out
She's leaving on a jet plane....
Okay, so I'm actually leaving in Nissan Sentra, but leaving nonetheless. I got the job!!! You're looking at your newest Seattle South Product Specialist for LG. The crazy part is that I am moving in a week and a half! On August 5th I will pack only what can fit in my car and head out for the big city. It's really happening! I have a lot of different emotions running through me, but mostly excited for this new adventure. My life has completely changed over these past 7 months. No better time to make a big jump like this. My step mom, Michelle, posted a comment on one of my posts with a quote I love. It's fits into my life perfectly right now.
She packed up her potential,
& all that she had learned,
grabbed a cute pair of shoes,
& headed out to change a few things.
I don't have a place to live yet and I will have no furniture in my place when I find it, but everything will fall into place. I'll keep you all updated on the journey to the big city. Back to the packing!
PS. I have sold most of my furniture, but I still have my tan leather couches and entertainment center. They are both great deals for furniture that is in really good shape. Let me know if you or you know anyone who is interested. : )
She packed up her potential,
& all that she had learned,
grabbed a cute pair of shoes,
& headed out to change a few things.
I don't have a place to live yet and I will have no furniture in my place when I find it, but everything will fall into place. I'll keep you all updated on the journey to the big city. Back to the packing!
PS. I have sold most of my furniture, but I still have my tan leather couches and entertainment center. They are both great deals for furniture that is in really good shape. Let me know if you or you know anyone who is interested. : )
July 13, 2011
Welcome back into my life, Nikon
For the past 7 months I have packed my sweet little Nikon away in my closet. About a month ago I had finally gotten all the pictures off of it. But, I wasn't quite ready to put her back into use. Yesterday I did it. I took her out, put her in my hands and clicked that magical button. The sound of the shutter almost made me cry. It's good to have her back in my life. The past 7 months have had many events and feelings I don't want to remember. But, there are good things from here on out that should be put on the record. Let the capturing begin!
July 12, 2011
July 11, 2011
Thank you daily horoscope ; )
My phone sends me a daily horoscope. For the most part, I think they are silly rubbish, but any direction is direction at this point. My horoscope for today said.....
Virgo: Your love life won't be as dynamic as it was, and that's probably a good thing.
I'll settle for simply in love any day. : )
Virgo: Your love life won't be as dynamic as it was, and that's probably a good thing.
I'll settle for simply in love any day. : )
July 07, 2011
What I've been up to....
I have been pretty open about my emotional status, but haven't really felt the need to let anyone in on what my life outside this blog has been like. Here's what's been going on in Ashley's world.
*Went to NY over Valentines to spend some time with my Aunt and Uncle. Did some shopping, relaxing and more shopping.
*Got an apartment- I was very lucky to find this place. A friend of mine that I used to work with owns a house in Ogden. The house is split into three apartments. My friends mom lives in the front apartment, I live in the back and we have another girl that lives upstairs with her two little girls. A house full of girls! My friend and her husband are the sweetest. They have taken good care of me. They have allowed me to put some of my junk down in their storage and they a washer and dryer for all of us to use. The rent is a great deal and they include my utilities. I couldn't have found a better place! Not to mention, it's only about 3 minutes drive away from my work. And I LOVE it! It's so dang cute! The kitchen has black and white tile and white, old style cupboards. The kitchen is by far the biggest room in the apartment. My decorations went very well with the set up. :-) It is extremely warm in my apartment with this crazy 100 degree weather, but other than that, it's my safe haven.
*Got in a car accident- In the process of trying to sale mine and Landon's Armada, I needed a car to drive. Landon let me drive his Maxima. Unfortunately, a 14 year old child decided to be driving her sisters car that day. She ran a stop sign and tail boned me. They spun me around until I was on the opposite side of the road, facing oncoming traffic. The car was totaled. The owner of the vehicle ended up not having insurance. It has lapsed 3 days before the accident. But, they said they wouldn't have covered it anyway because she was under age. Fan freakin tastic. Luckily, I pay an arm and a leg for my insurance and they have uninsured motorist. My attorney is currently going after them to put a lien on the retards who got away with hitting me. I wasn't injured too bad except for my shoulder. The seat belt works wonders in saving you, but also hurts you as well. I ended up getting intense whiplash in my neck and shoulder, bruises on my hips and ribs from the seat belt, and a headache from hitting my head on the window. No need to fret. I am lucky enough to have a mom that works for an amazing chiropractor who has taken great care of me every other car accident I've been in. He did tell me my neck will never be the same with how many times I have been hit. Sounds like my kind of luck. Recovery in process, but doing well.
*Put red back in my hair- LOVE it! Still debating on when to chop it.
*Got a new car!!!- There was an extensive process that had to happen before I could even start looking for a new car. We had to sale the Armada, refinance our home, and pull out my half of the equity. Well, trying to sale a $18,000 SUV that is a gas hog in the middle of gas price insanity, that didn't happen very easily. But, we finally got that done. Then we got the appraisal done on our home and sadly, but expected, it appraised four about $15,000 less than we though. We were able to finally put the house in Landon's name so everything was off my credit and get me my half of the equity. Let the car search begin! I looked for about a week and narrowed the car that I wanted to a Nissan Sentra. I found some great deals in Orem so off to Orem I went. I ended up getting a really good deal on an even newer model than I thought I would. It's my baby.
*Had surgery
*My car got in a car accident- Another accident you're thinking???? I know. This is the third in 6 months. It's getting a little ridiculous. I was not in the car for this accident, thank goodness. I had just had surgery two days before so that wouldn't have been the best for recovery. After my mom was bringing me home from staying at her house for a few days after surgery, I was having a friend take care of me. He was going to get my medication when a guy decided to pull out and stop in the middle of a busy road. So, thankfully, it wasn't my friends fault. Even though it wasn't his fault you can only imagine how terrible he felt. He got some pretty terrible whiplash, but other than that he was scratch free. The other driver had car insurance. A glimpse of good shines through the bad. I didn't end up having to pay anything for this one, not even a deductible. I may pay a lot for my car insurance, but they have been my saving grace. My car was in the stop for about 2 1/2 weeks. I was very lucky that just two weeks prior to all this happening I had moved onto my own policy and added the rental package. I was able to get a rental for free for the full 2 1/2 weeks. Much better than having to borrow another friend or family members car. Like they'd want to let this target borrow it anyway!!! The shop did a great job! My baby looks good as new! My rental was nice, but I was so glad to have my own car back. Now, if the world could stop running into me that would be much appreciated.
*Divorce was finalized- Different stages of mourning began.
*Applied for a job in Seattle- Still waiting to hear back. Hopefully will find out first thing Monday.
*Still don't have any kind of TV or internet in my apartment- Movies are great and much cheaper :-)
*Started doing pilates again.
Plans for the rest of the summer.......have fun! I haven't been able to enjoy much of this summer yet. I want to get out and go swimming, camping, hiking, and take at least one trip.
I hope you all are enjoying your summer. I can't thank you enough for all your support you've all given me on this blog. It's helped me more than you could ever imagine.
Much love,
Ashley Remarkable
*Went to NY over Valentines to spend some time with my Aunt and Uncle. Did some shopping, relaxing and more shopping.
*Got an apartment- I was very lucky to find this place. A friend of mine that I used to work with owns a house in Ogden. The house is split into three apartments. My friends mom lives in the front apartment, I live in the back and we have another girl that lives upstairs with her two little girls. A house full of girls! My friend and her husband are the sweetest. They have taken good care of me. They have allowed me to put some of my junk down in their storage and they a washer and dryer for all of us to use. The rent is a great deal and they include my utilities. I couldn't have found a better place! Not to mention, it's only about 3 minutes drive away from my work. And I LOVE it! It's so dang cute! The kitchen has black and white tile and white, old style cupboards. The kitchen is by far the biggest room in the apartment. My decorations went very well with the set up. :-) It is extremely warm in my apartment with this crazy 100 degree weather, but other than that, it's my safe haven.
*Got in a car accident- In the process of trying to sale mine and Landon's Armada, I needed a car to drive. Landon let me drive his Maxima. Unfortunately, a 14 year old child decided to be driving her sisters car that day. She ran a stop sign and tail boned me. They spun me around until I was on the opposite side of the road, facing oncoming traffic. The car was totaled. The owner of the vehicle ended up not having insurance. It has lapsed 3 days before the accident. But, they said they wouldn't have covered it anyway because she was under age. Fan freakin tastic. Luckily, I pay an arm and a leg for my insurance and they have uninsured motorist. My attorney is currently going after them to put a lien on the retards who got away with hitting me. I wasn't injured too bad except for my shoulder. The seat belt works wonders in saving you, but also hurts you as well. I ended up getting intense whiplash in my neck and shoulder, bruises on my hips and ribs from the seat belt, and a headache from hitting my head on the window. No need to fret. I am lucky enough to have a mom that works for an amazing chiropractor who has taken great care of me every other car accident I've been in. He did tell me my neck will never be the same with how many times I have been hit. Sounds like my kind of luck. Recovery in process, but doing well.
*Put red back in my hair- LOVE it! Still debating on when to chop it.
*Got a new car!!!- There was an extensive process that had to happen before I could even start looking for a new car. We had to sale the Armada, refinance our home, and pull out my half of the equity. Well, trying to sale a $18,000 SUV that is a gas hog in the middle of gas price insanity, that didn't happen very easily. But, we finally got that done. Then we got the appraisal done on our home and sadly, but expected, it appraised four about $15,000 less than we though. We were able to finally put the house in Landon's name so everything was off my credit and get me my half of the equity. Let the car search begin! I looked for about a week and narrowed the car that I wanted to a Nissan Sentra. I found some great deals in Orem so off to Orem I went. I ended up getting a really good deal on an even newer model than I thought I would. It's my baby.
*Had surgery
*My car got in a car accident- Another accident you're thinking???? I know. This is the third in 6 months. It's getting a little ridiculous. I was not in the car for this accident, thank goodness. I had just had surgery two days before so that wouldn't have been the best for recovery. After my mom was bringing me home from staying at her house for a few days after surgery, I was having a friend take care of me. He was going to get my medication when a guy decided to pull out and stop in the middle of a busy road. So, thankfully, it wasn't my friends fault. Even though it wasn't his fault you can only imagine how terrible he felt. He got some pretty terrible whiplash, but other than that he was scratch free. The other driver had car insurance. A glimpse of good shines through the bad. I didn't end up having to pay anything for this one, not even a deductible. I may pay a lot for my car insurance, but they have been my saving grace. My car was in the stop for about 2 1/2 weeks. I was very lucky that just two weeks prior to all this happening I had moved onto my own policy and added the rental package. I was able to get a rental for free for the full 2 1/2 weeks. Much better than having to borrow another friend or family members car. Like they'd want to let this target borrow it anyway!!! The shop did a great job! My baby looks good as new! My rental was nice, but I was so glad to have my own car back. Now, if the world could stop running into me that would be much appreciated.
*Divorce was finalized- Different stages of mourning began.
*Applied for a job in Seattle- Still waiting to hear back. Hopefully will find out first thing Monday.
*Still don't have any kind of TV or internet in my apartment- Movies are great and much cheaper :-)
*Started doing pilates again.
Plans for the rest of the summer.......have fun! I haven't been able to enjoy much of this summer yet. I want to get out and go swimming, camping, hiking, and take at least one trip.
I hope you all are enjoying your summer. I can't thank you enough for all your support you've all given me on this blog. It's helped me more than you could ever imagine.
Much love,
Ashley Remarkable
July 05, 2011
Positive reinforcement
Holidays suck, at least for now. I find myself holding my breath until they are over. I am usually the one spreading my positive words with you all. Now I need them from you. Please feel free to post any comments of positive reinforcement to boost me back on track.
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